Dear Mom & Dad

I just recently found out that I could blog via my iphone...sweet!  So i'm writing this while sitting under a tree watching little ones scamper around in the nearby playground.

Watching these kids transport me back to my own childhood.  Plenty of laughter and smiles. My parents picture very prominently in majority of my childhood memories :)  My father, the lecturer, stern as hell but a teddy bear inside.  He provided and  protected us, giving us all that we could want for.  My mom, the homemaker, always there for us. Be it to fetch and carry us to and from sports, tuition or play dates.  Together the 6 of us formed a close knit solid unit.

A few weeks ago I received news that my dad had taken ill.  The kinda news that for a daughter living overseas hates to get.  It threw me into a spin...what the hell do i do? There were other things happening to me simultaneously that I felt hopeless and useless as a daughter.  I need to make him better, I need to get home...nothing else matters. So with everything put on the back burner I take that flight and return to KL.

During that time, suspended in mid-air, where my life is literally in someone else's hands I ask myself the age old question of whether it would be best to return home and take on the duties of a daughter. What if one day i'm too late in getting back here.  Flying from DC to KL is no joke. All the 'what if's' play in my head.  I miss being my mom and dad's daughter. The thought of not seeing them again terrifies me. I wanna go back to when i was 7, where innocence ruled and health was good all around.  The horrors of the world had not touched me as yet.

Wishful thinking I know.  I heard my niece saying just the other day that she was 15 and a half.  I smiled. How important was it to state that additional half a year older. I'm 38 and a month and wondering what 38 and a half would be :0)

Life is but a mystery eh? Anyways, my dad is doing much better, he's walking around much more, will try to drive again soon and is well on the road to recovery.  I thank God for that.  I can return to DC peacefully and fade out. 

I love u, my dearest papa & mummy.  I wish you long life and the best the world can offer you both.