Restoration Mode

"For the love of God do I have to be sick, sad or depressed in order to wanna stay at home by myself?!?" I finally ended screaming over the phone after the 5th call :D


After having been on what seems like a 60 hour party binge I really just wanted to regroup and recoup. I restore myself when I'm alone. No incessant conversations, no drinking & eating, the need to stay off my feet was great (dancing in 4" stilettos is seriously painful!!) and no to some other vices too :) ... a chill out kinda day.


But for some reason this was equated with some of my friends as me being either sick, sad or depressed. Are you ok?...Do you think  you're coming down with something?...Aww don't tell me you're feeling down!...Need me to come over and keep u company?...C'mon cheer-up hon, let's have a drink and drown out all those sorrows!...You aren't homesick are you? Seriously, you don't have to be alone luv, there's so many of us around.


Aaaaaarrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!


no...No...NO people. I am a-ok.  I'm not lonely, I just want to be left alone to be. There is a difference you know. Sigh....(dammit i shouldn't be sighing. I was told by a friend that it was too early in the year to do so). Honestly, i've had as much fun today doing absolutely nothing worth while mentioning as I've had hanging with my buds and shooting the breeze.  


Why are people afraid of being alone? Why is there a stigma attached to it? Why is being alone equated to being lonely.  I've instances when i've had numerous folks around me and have felt lonely. 


If you don't already, i'd strongly recommend taking, not necessarily an entire day, but at least a few hours to yourself....read, blog, sleep, watch tv, catch up on movies missed but most importantly listen to yourself. 


Yup, I'm afraid that there is a voice in your head and it is real :0)