Words Left Unspoken

Hey you!

Not a day goes by since the accident where i don't think about you. In fact you can safely say its more than when you were around!  :0)

I got an unexpected visit from your attorneys on saturday. An interesting visit wherein which if you were here today, i'd smack you! I'm sure you had your reasons for doing what you did and I respect that. Everyone has secrets and I don't begrudge you yours.

I can't accept either of your gifts, however. Your sister's note and package came as a huge shock. I had no clue or was it because I was not listening? I've spent a huge amount of time this weekend rewinding stuff and have come to the conclusion that because I spend so much time goofing around, I missed all the signals. I now know that you'd not given up on me! But I still will not accept your gifts.

I am sorry for snowballing the events that  brought about snuffing out your life way before your time. I don't know if this guilt will ever leave me but I know I have to move forward with life. This in no way means I'll forget you.

Its ridiculous that we always leave the most important things to be said after it is all but too late. I appreciate you, bubba & thank you for keeping me company, making me laugh till i ache, being my designated driver on more than one occasion, listening to me gripe about work, shoveling my driveway while I got to make snow angels (hehehe) and much, much more. You're lovable, funny, annoying & I miss you tremendously, especially our morning coffee meet ups at Cuppa Cuppa. You're the only one who knows not to speak to me until I've had my second caffein intake & buy me the 3rd to take back to the office. Good man!

The last thing you said was to tell me that you love me, or I believe that is what I heard. And in my usual late fashion ... I love you too.

Goodbye, mon cher and one day we'll meet on the flip side. Oh by the way, do me a favor and help keep me out of further trouble, can?  :0)